Why Impossible Dream?

It's not a negative meaning at all, though it's what a lot of people have thought at first. The story goes back literally to the day I was born.....

March 1976, my mother who had just turned 20, found herself alone and almost 8 months pregnant, with me of course. My father who was 26 at the time was in jail for being an accessory to a drug deal and spending 6 months for his crime. Since she was so young, and my father was such a mess, my grandmother encouraged my mother to put me up for adoption but my mom couldn't, she didn't know much about life but she knew she wanted to be a mother since she was a little girl.

On the 6th of March, my mom felt me turn and then felt a sharp pain. Scared, she had my grandmother take her to the ER where it was discovered I had the umbilical cord wrapped around my neck and she needed an emergency C section. I was 7 weeks premature and when I was born I was blue and not breathing. Clinically dead for just over 1 minute. I was revived but had to be in an incubator. Doctors told my mother, if I lived, which wasn't very likely, I would be blind from the oxygen in the incubator and severely brain damaged from lack of oxygen in the womb. Chances were I wouldn't have much of a life. But my mom, who to this day is stubborn as an ox, wouldn't hear of it. Day and night she stayed with me, never left the hospital, and though she couldn't touch me or hold me, she sang to me. Her favorite movie was Man of Lamancha and loved the song Impossible Dream from the film. She sang it to me over and over. 8 days after I was born, I opened my eyes and looked right at her...... she KNEW I wasn't blind and knew in her heart the Doctors were wrong. I was only 3 lbs, 6 oz and she couldn't take me home until I was 5 lbs which took almost 3 months. I kept getting infections, then recovering, then getting another one. But, eventually I was well enough to go home. Within the next 3 months, I went from being 5 lbs to 20 and when I was 1 year old, they determined I definitely wasn't blind and since I could already speak I showed no signs of brain damage!

My mom, since then has always been my biggest fan. And when Ive done something good, or achieved something, she would always say "That doesn't surprise me, you're my Impossible Dream" and this is why I use this title for almost everything I do online.

I've had hurdles since literally day 1. My life has not been a bed of roses by far, but sometimes the lyrics to that song help me get over the next hurdle.

To dream the impossible dream
To fight the unbeatable foe
To bear with unbearable sorrow
To run where the brave dare not go

To right the unrightable wrong
To love pure and chaste from afar
To try when your arms are too weary
To reach the unreachable star

This is my quest
To follow that star
No matter how hopeless
No matter how far

To fight for the right
Without question or pause
To be willing to march into Hell
For a heavenly cause

And I know if I'll only be true
To this glorious quest
That my heart will lie peaceful and calm
When I'm laid to my rest

And the world will be better for this
That one man, scorned and covered with scars
Still strove with his last ounce of courage
To reach the unreachable star